But as the saying goes, If something this too good to be true it probably is, and i guess this is a prefect way to sum up me and my XF. after moving into our own place and getting engaged again. ( Yes, yes i know. but remember i was smitten.. this was mr perfect.. I wanted to keep him for good) He changed completely, he was 200% clean freak, and anything i did or, tried to do was never good enough in his eyes. For so long I overlooked it, thinking this is THE ONE.
But after months and months of that constant failure in someone eyes, u start just sinking.. being consumed into a darkness, which fitted nicely with being out of work.It got to the point where he hadn't been able to tell me he loved me for months, luckily I'd got a position in a government organisation and I realised this was my break.
I got attention quite frequently from guys at work and I realised Hey.. I am pretty, I am Smart and sexy and I can be so much better than what he is letting me be. So I made my plans and after a rather messy breakup, I felt like a huge cloud had lifted. We hated each other for quite few months, both angry at the hurt, my hurt over the way he had treated me and how he'd changed my life and his hurt over losing control.
Now we talk and are friends and civilised. But its changed what I want in a partner dramatically. I will never rush into a relationship before opening my eyes and seeing the reality of who a person really is.
